Thus far we have seen many physical gains in only 3 weeks of J's treatment, the drug (made from living cells) is extremely powerful for a very powerful disease. It is also extremely expensive. Initially, we were encouraged that the insurance company was going to pay almost all of the treatment....but this past week told they were switching us to another pharmacy so we have to cover a lot more of the costs.
In J's mind, he will no longer be treated if we have to pay ___ a month for the treatment... in my mind that is not an option, but what are our options? We are working to apply for other aid.... God has always provided.
Regardless... I feel the knock at my door to again cycle through discouragement, worry... and ultimately a desire to control the situation. And then I am brought back to the truth.
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
What we treasure:
Owen.
A marriage, grounded by Him.
Family
Close, deep friendships that call us higher..
The ability to touch lives...
And most importantly, a Father who has given unconditional love, forgiveness, grace, and the ability to be our best selves...
While many others travel the world (still hope to), dress their children in designer clothing and drive luxurious cars... J and I will probably always be faced with medical bills. However, I have begun to see this as a blessing for us.... it will be a constant reminder build up treasures in heaven. "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also"
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What a great post. good reminder. i will be keeping you guys in my prayers!
ReplyDelete"We always pray for you, and we give thanks to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. For we have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and your love for all of God's people, which come from your confident hope of what God has reserved for you in heaven. You have had this expectation ever since you first heard the truth of the Good News." Col 1:3-5 NLT
ReplyDeleteLove you and praying.
Wow. That was my quiet time for the day. Good post.
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ReplyDeleteOh man. Awesome post, L. Appreciate your perspective and KNOW that God is going to move this mountain too.
ReplyDeleteThank You for sharing your hearts. This was very moving. The same challenges you described have been the struggle of helping Katie to get all the meds she has needed. God has always provided a way for us and now she and her husband to have access. One time she participated in a drug study for over a year to get the meds free. Biologics are very expensive but they do work. Your Doctor will have ideas too... We love you all very much and will keep praying. "Aunt Kim"
ReplyDeleteYou always challenge me, Laura! I love your heart and passion for God!
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